I Got a FEELin'

Sorry I've been MIA lately! I've been moving and things happened too fast to properly prepare for my social media and blog. But, things are settling now (still busy, but what else is new?), so hopefully we're back on track for the foreseeable future. And now, back to your regularly scheduled blog post:

I'm kind of atrocious with words. That's not to say that I am terrible always (obviously), but I'd wager it's the truth about 75-95% of the time. I can't even craft proper thank you notes or write in greeting cards . . . I'll sign my name, but that's usually all I'm good for in the card department. (Sorry!) And when it comes to talking and replying in real time? Game over, my awkwardness knows no limits.

The problem isn't that I'm ungrateful or emotionless (though I've definitely been told that I come across that way irl), but that I have too much going on in my head and can't sift through it and put the feelings to the right words. This is also likely why I'm such an incredibly slow writer. So why share these things and expose myself like this?

Because I am never not being introspective and analyzing why I feel what I feel and picking apart all of those emotions constantly (and I used to think I wasn't an over-thinker!). Just because vocalizing those things or even putting them into particular words is a struggle, I don't let myself get lazy about examining where my heart and mind are at any given point in time. Which, I think, is why my poetry pieces are mostly rather short and concise. They've been through multiple filters by the time they even make it to the blank page.

But what does all of this have to do with FEEL?

This is the shortest section of the three in Inkling. But I think that is partly because of what I mentioned above. It's where all of my pieces (for this book) containing my deepest thinking and processing got sorted. Unlike LISTEN and LEARN, FEEL is where I had the least amount of actual, internal work to do. Instead of my initial bursts of anger or grief welling out onto the pages, it's a more thoughtful progression. It's not only what I experienced, but the why as well. LISTEN is full of things I just needed to say, LEARN is a tentative foray into expressing and sharing, while FEEL truly is just my mind sitting with itself and working through things.

If you're in a similar place in life–what with the year 2020 was and the year 2021 is shaping up to be–then maybe Inkling has something for you. Get the book and find out by clicking here:

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